Thoughts Amassing

All original. All lyrics and vocals by me. This is not part of my concept album. It's actually part of a progressive rock album I have been working on lately. Ironically, this will be the last song on the album, though it is the first song I started and the first song I finished.

I started this about 3 months ago, and I have been working on it periodically. I think it was probably the most work I have ever put into a song, both musically and lyrically. Because of all the vocals, it was very difficult to mix, so please excuse all the imperfections. I realized that there might be too much bass, but it would take so long to fix. Sorry. Anyway, here are the lyrics:

There I was thinking I had something special
Later on I would learn otherwise
I was too young to see the bigger picture
Even though I set my goals so high
Now and then there would be these revelations
Something great would present itself to me
And it became so clear that I never had a chance
to compete, but was this all I'd ever be?

No! That won't suffice

But the problem remained year after year
As I walked on the only path I knew
Disappointment would inevitably follow
And those feelings of despair only grew
Intensified by the need to thrive
The need to show that I've arrived
Yet still I'm reminded that the journey
is far from over...

No shortcuts exist

Am I merely reaching for something that's too far away?
Hoping to find a place found only by those born with more luck...
Is this just a matter of perseverance, or is it
foolish for me to make any attempt whatsoever?

My efforts are mocked
By secrets still locked
in vaults, where they talk and make fun
Creations so fine
Uniquely divine
But none of them mine, not one

Can I win these battles against forces within my own
conscience? Can I stop all this gnawing and clawing at my mind?
Questions come rushing in and flooding the surface of my
intellect, obstructing all capabilities I possess.

My efforts are mocked
By secrets still locked
in vaults, where they talk and make fun
Creations so fine
Uniquely divine
But none of them mine, not one
Not a single one of these perfections is mine

But at least I'll always have...
A destiny to chase
A future to embrace
A past to leave behind
A goal to keep in mind
I'll travel any length
Accumulating strength
and savoring the time
before things so sublime

Attacks so vicious almost break me
Also make me more ambitious

All this time is passing, passing
All these thoughts are slowly amassing
Creeping up like waves on beaches
Look how high the water reaches

But everything changes...

Surely I'll change too
Surely I'll improve
Prove my own worth
in my own rebirth

All the targets I've missed
fill an endless abyss
but my soul is so pure
I discovered a cure for this
Blistering pain
All my demons are slain
and tomorrow will bring
so many new things to obtain
When I find my own way
on that glorious day
when I let the anthems sound
will the echoes resound or decay?

The lyrics are about my journey to become a better artist, and all the positive and negative thoughts. There is a feeling of depression and inferiority, but also optimism.

I found the picture on google. It looked like it fit with the lyrics (waves of thoughts).

Thanks for listening! I really appreciate your time, and I would love to hear your most honest opinions.