"Human" How to Make a Pessemist Track number 1

1st Track from the How to Make a Pessemist project Entitled "Human". I think that everything that I have done likely has the same "overmodulation,overdriven" problem as has been pointed out. That is something that I will have to fix in the future. I would like to know if it is understandable. These are early makes from 05/06 time..with things added here and there... Please let me know how the "How to make a pessemist series" seems to you. Thank you in advance for constructive criticism..It is greatly appreciated.

 

“How to make a pessimist” by HeavensSpear

Copyright 2006

( TRACK 1 A emotionally disturbed young man(Heavens Spear) with memory issues comes to a mental facility in a city called Eden IV where he meets and begins a relationship built on trust with a psychiatrist (Doctor Robert Whithers) Dr. Whithers is trying to delve into the mind of this man in order to try and assist him in unlocking the secrets of his past, that an unknown traumatic event has caused him to block out. He has long term memory but not short term memory…and certain things that should make him happy, make him angry or afraid. There is something even more different about him that neither Whithers nor HeavensSpear is aware of. But The director of the Mental facility has some idea…

　Lyrics: Human: How to make a pessemist track 1 by Heaven's Spear Kittrell

Your “Human…”

When you have made destruction your religion

“ So. Someone…”

Else must be to blame for your decisions

Liar…

Responsibility rests not on my head

Mired..

Too damn deep inside myself to care …(about anyone else)

Never had a childhood, I wasn’t allowed

so when the pain came down I couldn’t cry out

Father abandoned me… but look at me now

Now….No one hates as much as me… LOOK AT ME NOW!

(CHORUS)

Want to believe again?

So don’t make me doubt

Want to escape all this

But I can’t get out

To you Im quiet here

But inside me it’s loud

…don’t try embracing me, I’ll scream “don’t touch me”!

(please don’t touch me)

There are curses and whispers heard, though I’ve made no sound

So if you say another word, you will hit the ground

Everyone before you friend has thrown in the towel

Do yourself a favor and walk away now…

Damaged (goods)

…Lost (property)

…never found

Apathy…

Is an armor that your shoulders bear

Misery…loves

Company, they say when no one else cares

Pity..

That you get your hopes up, when you should learn to resist

Filthy

Is the cleanest feeling of a pessimist….